Thanksgiving

As Thanksgiving approaches (for those that are not American-this is a time of year when we give thanks for those things most important in our lives) - I take a minute to give thanks:

* For friends and family
* For my sweet dog being home and completing a broken heart
* For a job and the ability to financially rebuild my life
* For my mental stamina to continue with school - work - new business - and life in general.
* For the healing that took place in my soul during a trip to Thailand (unconditional love realized)
* For the small (but huge) things - that I sometimes overlook - but simply walking, talking, seeing, hearing
* For my home and a warm place to lay my head this winter
* For all the laughs that each of my girlfriends always provide when I need them most
* For grace and mercy when I do not do the best
* For acceptance as to the person I am - and who I strive to be
* For love and intimacy in all my relationships that allows me to be comfortable with myself and the other person.
* For turkey feast with friends :)

Wishing all of you a fabulous holiday......

Stregnthening my inner "man"

I have come to the realization that my inner-core requires stregnthening.  This is both for my physical core muscles - spiritual / emotional fibers.  How do I do that?  Being the solution based person I lay out a checklist of a few ways immediately:

• Running
• Yoga / Core training / Pilates
• SRI
• Playing with my dog
• Reading
• Bible
• Self-help
• Finances
• Intimacy / Trust
• Strategy / business development
• Prayer
• Relational Development
• Church
• Mission Efforts
• Friendship (Time investmet)
• Self - what can I do to become a better friend to myself???
• Travel

Now that I have this list the key is to integrate it into my life.  I find this the difficulty.  When a day comes along and I get either a.) entrenched in work / school or b.) tired and lethargic or c.) overwhelmed so I give up.....but on the good days I get to do some of these things that bring me peace and happiness.  The Admin in me wants a schedule and a plan so I can have security in the knowingness that all things are being accomplished on my "important" list.

Priorities, as my grandpa would say....."Life is about priorities."

So what do I want to do the most?  Hmmmm.......this changes daily. 

End of this thought - I remain in prayer and rely on the Lord to direct my steps so all things can be accomplished for him.  This is relying on myself way WAAAYYY too much to figure it all out.

Thank you Jesus~!~!~!

Levels of Love

Recently I was engaged in a conversation where the group was discussing the facets of love - how they transform over time.

Interested in some of the buzz words people were using I went home and played on Google.  I came across a list of the 7 Levels of Love - Deepak Chopra and Oprah.

1. Attraction
2. Infatuation
3. Communion
4. Surrender
5. Intimacy
6. Passion
7. Ecstasy

Continuing on my word breakdown I used the dictionary to define each of these words:

1. Attraction
1. 1
   a: the act, process, or power of attracting b: personal charm
   2

   : the action or power of drawing forth a response : an attractive quality
   3

   : a force acting mutually between particles of matter, tending to draw them together, and resisting their separation
   4

   : something that attracts or is intended to attract people by appealing to their desires and tastes <coming attractions>
2. Infatuation
1. 1
   : to cause to be foolish : deprive of sound judgment
   2

   : to inspire with a foolish or extravagant love or admiration
3. Communion
1. 1
   : an act or instance of sharing
   2

   acapitalized: a Christian sacrament in which consecrated bread and wine are consumed as memorials of Christ's death or as symbols for the realization of a spiritual union between Christ and communicant or as the body and blood of Christ b: the act of receiving Communion ccapitalized: the part of a Communion service in which the sacrament is received
   3

   : intimate fellowship or rapport : communication
   4

   : a body of Christians having a common faith and discipline <the Anglican communion>
4. Surrender
1. 1
   a: to yield to the power, control, or possession of another upon compulsion or demand <surrendered the fort> b: to give up completely or agree to forgo especially in favor of another
   2

   a: to give (oneself) up into the power of another especially as a prisoner b: to give (oneself) over to something (as an influence)
5. Intimacy
1. 1
   : the state of being intimate : familiarity
   2

   : something of a personal or private nature
6. Passion
1. 1
   often capitalized a: the sufferings of Christ between the night of the Last Supper and his death b: an oratorio based on a gospel narrative of the Passion
   2

   obsolete: suffering
   3

   : the state or capacity of being acted on by external agents or forces
   4

   a (1): emotion <his ruling passion is greed> (2)plural: the emotions as distinguished from reason b: intense, driving, or overmastering feeling or conviction c: an outbreak of anger
   5

   a: ardent affection : love b: a strong liking or desire for or devotion to some activity, object, or concept c: sexual desire d: an object of desire or deep interest
7. Ecstasy
1. 1
   a: a state of being beyond reason and self-control barchaic: swoon
   2

   : a state of overwhelming emotion; especially: rapturous delight
   3

   : trance; especially: a mystic or prophetic trance
   4

   often capitalized: a synthetic amphetamine analog C₁₁H₁₅NO₂ used illicitly for its mood-enhancing and hallucinogenic properties —called also MDMA

During our conversation we discussed that it is hard to know what you are doing if you don't know where you are going.  In marriages, I am curious if both people really realize that there is a path to their "love" and if both people are walking the same path?  Friendship - work relationships - family......if you "loved" these individuals (even in a plutonic fashion).....shouldn't that love follow the same path?  More importantly, does it?  Do we get stuck in particular levels and that is all our mind perceives "love" to be?  How can this state of "love" be all-encompassing and satisfying all at the same time? 

 

The world is driven by it - it directs so many decisions in people's existence - yet, I wonder if people stop to reflect on the exact breakdown of this thing so many are searching for = "LOVE."

 

Curious thoughts on a Friday afternoon...........

Walk the Higher Path

Just received the proverbial slap across the wrist (and mouth / fingers) for talking so much crap.  Either my friend read it and was gently setting me straight - or his "all" knowingness kicked in and he knew I needed to read some serious alignment words.

I shouldn't have written bad things about work / co-workers.  I should be walking a higher path and that was a poor example of a Christian.  My testimony is my own actions.

Hanging my head ~ repenting.  My apologies for the outburst.  Instead of praying or relaxing and allowing it to pass I bleeped out my irritation.  Good lesson.  Even in this moment of anonymity I should reflect a higher path.  Examples are set and received all the time.

"Be the example of change you want to see in the world." ~ Thanks for the nudge in the right direction :)

Cranky Observationist

On a lighter note.....what is with the snow?  And my job - WOW!!!  Good thing I am coming off a "vacation" and riding the smiles that I stored up there.

Not to complain - but TOTALLY to complain!!!  18 inches of snow - what!?!?!?!.....could have waited until December.  Not the funnest.  My dog and I are playing in it, but only for 20 minutes at a time.  We both need to acclimate.

And my job - seriously - no one did anything when I was gone in my department.  I laid out specific strategies - tools to make it easier - diagrams - the whole "9" so to speak.  Did anything happen.  Oh heck no!!!  That would be too easy.  Didn't even follow standard procedures for auditing purposes.  Learning how to brain dump other people's stupid choices.

Typically I would have freaked out and then ran behind the entire office cleaning up the messes they made.  Not anymore - not this gal.  No more neurotic crazy person trying to fix everyone else's mistakes that they KNOWINGLY made.  Not setting that presidence.  NOPE!!  Just irritated that sometime's people choose to be lazy and do things half-way. 

It may be my perfectionist-type attitude, but my work is a reflection of who I am, so I can't turn in crap.  Curious how people always feel about cutting corners in everything.  Shows a reflection of character to me.  I am not a judge - rather an observationist.

Now a cranky observationist.  Gripe over!!!  Almost 5pm and then I can worry about important matters - like were to walk my dog, which local coffee shop to sit in and catch up on school work, and which pair of the most fashionable (yet functional) pair of ultra warm leggings to purchase for this winter :)  Suggestions welcome...........

"Re-entry"

It is hard to be back in the US.  I have unpacked my physical belongings and yet I feel like part of me is still over there.  My heart is still there...my mind is still there.  I am trying to settle back in and "adjust" to my regular duties of work - school work - and life in general.  It is like I am walking in a dream.  Talking to friends / family seem strange.  Before I left my mind was consumed with the "how's" to make everything happen.  Now I am still consumed with "how's".....but it is so overwhelming.  I don't want to go to my job - what a waste of time?  I know I need to make money to survive....but I have so many other things I want to do.

Be light......"how?"......allow God to work as He did before....."OK"........"how?"........

What is the lesson here?  Not sure.  Still trying to make my head stop spinning.  It stops and then restarts when I begin to look at my laundry list of things I want to accomplish.  Deep breathing and trying to practice some relaxation tools.  Not really working.

Sleep....that is all I want to do is sleep.  Then I dream.  Travel rather.  I am all over the place - back in Thailand, in places I don't know (yet), back home with family.  I feel like my spirit is trying to settle back into it's physical "home" again.

Finals in school - two weeks behind - not a great time to disconnect spirit and mind.  Just sayin......

"Peace is the referee"......praying that it comes.....but strangely I am not distraught.  I am not agitated.  I am not angry, hurt, upset,.......I am sad.  I feel my heart breaking and I am sad.  I suppose this is why I need to pray for peace.  Answer my own question - eventually.

Prayerfully waiting on God and me to realign.

Little Things.

I am preparing to leave Thailand and was trying desperately to fit everything into my last 24 hours....worried about this and that.  I was just running around doing odds and ends tasks that probably, in the grand scheme of things, don't really matter.

That was just completely confirmed.

One of my friends just came to me and is literally covered in bruises.  Her boyfriend attacked her and beat her up.  When I asked "why" - because she caught him in bed cheating on her with another woman.  She informed me she was not at the house because she suspected another woman.  She was there because he sent her a rude message earlier in the day and she went to work it out and talk to him.  She caught him "in the act."

When he realized he had been caught red-handed, he physically beat her.  He couldn't react or take her focus off what he was doing by words so he literally began punching and kicking her.  She stands at a whopping 4'6" tall.  He is approximately 6'2".  You get the picture.

I took her to her house and checked it out for safety reasons.  I stayed with her as long as I could.  It is now 4am and I need to pack before I leave this country tomorrow (today).

She is worried for her life and rebuilding herself.  I was worried about how to pack.

Meaningless things sometimes get in my way and I cannot see the forest for the trees.  I want to remember to take the time to "be" in someone's life.  Facebook - email - text messaging would have NEVER revealed to me what direct contact provided.  This is true for all my relationship building that has occurred during my travels.

Time is priceless when shared.

Be Who You Are.....

What do you do when you know you are being "unplugged" from something / someone???

I don't know....do nothing I think.  At least today that is my answer.  Trust in God to provide and move you in the direction you should be going.

The catalyst.....strangely, things you didn't think would be a problem may / may not be a problem.  It is like you can feel the opposite person / situation changing before you even arrive.

Huh!?!?! {Scratching my head}  Perplexed as to the "why" - but not owning the "why" - it is not up to me to determine.

Suppose life will work itself out, as it always does.  Sometimes being comfortable is just nice.

"You can never be who you are supposed to be by remaining who you are."  Guess that goes for stay / work / love / live / etc......

Praying for open minds and hearts upon my arrival back home.

Speaking...even when you don't want to.....

Sometimes it is difficult to say the truth.  It is not pleasant to see the receiving person cringe - or become withdrawn / angry - all because of what you said.

I have a great big heart and all I want to do is make someone smile and laugh.  I want to see the world enjoy themselves and be happy, experience love and grace.  It pains me to be the one to speak the truth, when I know it is not easily received.

I have to remember that through this process of opening my mouth, I am also growing.  I am learning how to deliver messages that are not potentially pleasing, but can be received well.

My mother used to tell me that you catch more flies with honey, rather than vinegar.  You can say the same thing two totally opposite ways.  I am learning the process of speaking the truth, getting my point across, and allowing the recipient to receive my words.

It is all apart of the process.  I am just learning to not make the process reliant on me (it never was - I only thought it was.....silly rabbit ~ tricks are for kids).

Into My Legacy????

I ponder today....how many people are faced with walking into their legacy and realize it?  Do "we" (as humans) balk at this potential moment to rise up???

Yesterday I was confronted with an opportunity.  One that possesses high risk ratings for so much.  This is not a small jump to the edge of the pan.  I would knowingly place my faith in God and all my beliefs - placing them to the test.  It is no joke.  It could mean my life - and maybe my families should something go wrong.  Do I jump into the fire trusting God to save me through it all?  There would be no turning back....not for a long time....if ever.  Only my fear (which is valid if I could post the details) tells me to turn back....but my heart and gut knock my shoulders forward - full throttle.  Almost as if I have been called into battle.

A friend told me to implore a circle of trusted friends....people that will guide me and help keep me in the right path.  I have used this advise for smaller items up until now.  I await to hear back from that circle and God.

The strangest part, it all makes sense if I take this step.  It clicks into place my past - present - and future.  Until now...it was easy to start a non-profit, art studio, go back to school.  This, however, requires a true movement of my faith.  God has continually grown my faith from small microscopic nothingness...and now this jump.  I have trusted Him with small items that made me comfortable...until it is scary.  My life is His - right?  Why not - Just Do It?

Today's ramblings........I remain in prayer and council.  Out of respect for all that love me and have invested in me - I remain calm and patient, knowing that the right answer will come.  I also realize that deception can lead me astray from my real calling.  It may feel as if I should head in one direction...but really?

Co-laborer with heaven - divine appointments - angelic protection / guidance.  Trusting in all I know now.  But ready - should I be called.

Lotus Initiative

It has been such a pleasure to be in Thailand again.  Today the sun is shining brightly - strangely enough I haven't felt the tourist urge to go BBQ my skin in it.  I have happily sat inside and caught up on school work. I will go watch the sunset with a friend and enjoy a coconut later today.  Ah....fresh coconut....nature's electrolytes (and tasty too).

I also find I have so many great idea's of how to move here in Thailand - professionally, philanthropically, and personally.  I know they are all great idea's.  I remain quiet now and wait for the "direct" answer.  I am led into my path by the divine guidance of life.

In the next year I see myself here in Thailand 6 months out of the year.  I envision setting up some businesses that will allow me to work out my desired goals to help provide a true income for the women choosing to no longer submit themselves to the sex trade industry.  A recent statistic is that this industry, in Asia alone, grossed more than 1.5 BILLION USD$$$  last year alone.  Somehow I am not surprised, having lived here and witnessed it for so long.

I took a walk down "Bangla Road" in Patong two nights ago.  My stomach turned.  When I walk past the bars and see the men sitting in there and these young women subjecting themselves to alcohol poisoning, lurid comments, scantily clad clothes......typically with an undertone of some drug consumption to make it through the evening....I want to vomit.  Maybe this is because I have personally been effected by having my ex-husband take these women before....maybe it is because I also know these women and it breaks my heart.  Our skin colors and origin may be different.  But I am not so different than they are.  I have been that woman trying to please a man that could care less.

I hear so many people proclaim that all women are looking for a man.  I would like to add to that statement.....they are seeking an instinctual sense of security and family.  It is a woman's nature to want to take care of their loved ones.  These men are preying upon this desire to exploit it for their underhanded demands.  Most men come here and want a maid - cook - sex toy.  They do not want a woman with an opinion or mind of their own.  I pose a question....if they did want an equal....why wouldn't they be in their culture discovering that equal woman that they could grow with?  Only they can answer those questions.

I see the broken pieces of a woman that need tending too.  In the end, most men flit from flower to flower. In Thailand, we call them "butterfly."  So when they are bored with the current women....they find another flower. Typically, they have exhausted the flower - drained it of all energy - life - laughter - and love.  When that is all gone...then they seek another to consume.  Morbid!!

My goal is to provide a source of income for these women.  I will call it the Lotus Initiative.  A lotus flower rises above the mud and muck....even the fish and water....towards the sunlight.  In the light they blossom and flourish.  I will find a way to rise up these women and allow them to blossom in the light that they have been kept from.

I cry because I know how good it can be............

Yesterday was difficult for me.  It was a selfish emotion.  I want so badly to help some people.  I want to simply show them the way and have them walk behind me immediately.  I hate that time is wasted.  I hate that the revelation is not immediately recognized.  I hate my emotion that pulls me so close that I feel the pain in the pit of  my stomach.  I am angered at my resentment.

Suddenly, I recalled the advice of a friend....peace is the referee.  I discovered peace and remembered that if I took the "me" out of the equation....then I was at peace.  I was content.  I was exactly where I needed to be....doing exactly what I should be doing.  There was now clarity in my mind.  A door opened in the situation and God's light shined upon that moment.  Words were spoken in truth - and received with an open heart.  The seeds were planted.  The night ended.

My lesson....for years I have wanted to control friends / loved one's to avoid their pain.  When I realized that I should not have that desire......my "neediness" changed.  I am sure the receiving end of my words, those ears / eyes / hearts, sense my dramatic need.  Like all things done is desperation, most are not well received.  Changing myself - changed the outcome and reception of the same message.

The truth is maybe others also know how good it can be....they are simply terrified to make the next steps. Encouragement was the lesson of the day - NOT desperation.

Revelation with Relationship breeds freedom :)

Yeah!!!!

Man sharpens man....like a knife sharpens a knife.

The past two days have brought me a warm fuzzy feeling of returning home and a warm heart for the women and men I have loved for years.  I have also been the recipient of repeated divine favor along my way....the power of prayer in action :)

Admittedly, I wasn't prepared to be challenged so quickly.  A moment arose and I was faced with my pride or the opportunity to reach past hurt and anguish for a greater goal.  It is NEVER about me any longer....I reminded myself.  It is a greater plan in motion and I am but a spoke on the wheel.

This evening I will have an opportunity to show love to some individuals I didn't want to love any longer.  Funny how what you want isn't what is really what is going to happen.  I find that this is also in an unexpectedly good way most of the time.

Just when I thought I reached the summit...I realized that there is another peak in the distance.  I have regained my wind, having battled so hard up the first incline; now I feel at peace as I continue to put one foot in front of the other - meeting and making progress towards the bigger goals.

Good things come to those who wait.....

A Return to Love - pg 39

A friend sent this to me this morning and I thought I would share.  Somewhat fitting as I prepare to face a place, and culture, that I no longer cared to love.

In the book, “A Return to Love”:   

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 page 39:

“The truth is… calling on God means inviting everything into our lives that will force us to grow--- and growth can be messy.  The purpose of life is to grow into our perfection.  Once we call on God, everything that could anger us is on the way.  Why?  Because the place where we go into anger instead of love, is our wall.  Any situation that pushes our buttons is a situation where we don’t yet have the capacity to be unconditionally loving.  It’s the Holy Spirit’s job to draw our attention to that, and help us move beyond that point.  

Our comfort zones are the limited areas in which we find it easy to love.  It’s the Holy Spirit’s job not to respect those comfort zones, but to bust them.  We’re not at the mountaintop until anyzone is comfortable.  Love isn’t love until it’s unconditional.  We’re not experiencing who we really are until we experience our perfect love.”

The love I’ve given and received is real.  And nothing else matters. 

Preparing to Summit

Whenever I have climbed mountains in Colorado....those big 14,000 ft peaks.....you prepare to summit - both mentally and physically.  I feel like I am preparing to summit in 3 days time.  I have prepared as much as possible.  It is now time to put one foot in front of the other and climb.  I leave the fate of the summit in the hands of my Maker.

If you know you are doing everything in your power to get where you want to go - what else is there but trust?  Trust you will summit - trust in your body - trust your mind to control your steps / your breathe to sustain you / and your body to hold you upright.  I walk in trust right now.

As I prepare to tackle the list of duties that need to be accomplished before I leave.....I pray for peace of mind and the continuation of my forward momentum.

My school work remains behind.  I rely on the space during the trip to catch up.  Traveling for 30+ hours will allow me to focus on somethings - sitting me still long enough to accomplish the back log of assignments that has piled up during the previous two weeks.

Love Studios - finally reached a point where I feel comfortable in walking away for the next month.  Thank God for a dear friend that will honor my open house hours and carry the torch in my absence.  I pray for the sale of the art on display so I can continue the next steps while in Thailand.  Again trust in the seeds I planted to grow and bare fruit.

Thailand - wowsers - I thought this was going to be the difficult part for preparation reasons.  This has been somewhat easier than anticipated - or maybe I have been distracted by working a full-time job, going to school full-time, and opening a new business?  I have my appointments scheduled - travel arrangements confirmed.....if only I can get there.  Funding has been an issue, with a recent surprise of a car repair rearing its head.  Again....I walk in faith that the art will sell and donations will come just at the right time to pay for the excess luggage costs and get me to NYC.

My women friends in Thailand are excited to see me.  I am so blessed to be able to return with a sense of hope for these women.  These twelve ladies saw me through the worst time in my life.  I literally nearly died multiple times in Thailand - physically, emotionally, and spiritually.  Somehow God sent me angels time and time again that kept me breathing.  In retrospect, I look back and know it was all for His purpose.  When I left Thailand I wanted to NEVER look back - having lost my family, my business, every material possession, my husband, my dog, and more importantly - myself.  I remain in a state of shock at how my heart condition has changed to the point that I realize I lived through that nightmare....to come out the other side in light and love.....only to return and bring back that light into the darkness.

As I prepare to summit, I continue to put one foot in front of the other.  I remain focused on the goals at hand - school work / studio preparation / mission focus / sharing love with some of the most important women in my life.

I read once that a man's most important life relationship is with his wife.  A woman's most important life relationship is with her sisters.  I never had a sister growing up so I never really knew what that felt like....now I do.  It is true.  My sisters kept (and continue to keep) me sane.   My sisters made me laugh when I wanted to die.  My sisters held my hand in the hospital.  My sisters screamed at me when I was doing stupid things.  My sisters stood beside me in pride as I faced situations I would have rather not.

Here's to my sisters ~ This mountain is for you!!!!

Introduction

Welcome to the "No Mountain Too High" blog.....where I believe you can climb any mountain you choose to – both symbolic and physical.

This blog is intended to connect facets of our world, in hopes you will utilize them, to leave the world a better place.  Please post comments based on your genuine desire to provide feedback that will be utilized in a positive fashion.  This does not mean that all posts are required to be "nice" only - simply that you intend your post to be positive feedback.  Now to tell you a bit about myself and my mission........
I have a diverse background and lifestyle.  I was born in a small New Mexico town during the 70's - traveling and living abroad - and now currently going through an evolutionary point in my life.  I have worked for corporations, owned my own International business, experimented with everything from banking to computer engineering and project management to being a personal training / gym owner.  I have lived abroad in Thailand for 5 years – living through the bird flu, SARS, and the Tsunami.  I have vacationed in most all of Asia, and Curacao / Venezuela - yet nothing has satisfied my spirit from a job standpoint.  I will forever be a traveler and would like to see the entire world.  I believe the memories you create are one of the most important investments in a person’s life journey (that and a great bed to rest at night in).  Those precious gifts are the only tangible you can take with you.  After searching and wondering what to do with myself after leaving Thailand, I decided to return to college and follow my true hearts desires - not the ones forced upon me by the deception of chasing the proverbial carrot.  I decided to focus on what I will leave behind when I leave this earth....what seeds will I plant that will leave the world a little nicer than I found it.  This choice may or may not lead me to a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow, but instead of chasing a dollar I am going to chase my dreams.  It is a continual walk of faith and determination, hence the Blog title “No Mountain Too High.”  

This new arts program is taking on a multitude of forms, as I conceptualize the possibilities to help those less fortunate.  First of all, it is call “The Robin Hood Project” – taking from the more fortunate and giving to the lesser.  The idea is to take anything people want to throw away – junk jewelry, half used cans of paint, old paintings, frames, random pieces of wood, floral sprays, etc. etc. etc. and turn them into treasure.  Once the drive provides fruit, the program will work backwards into craft projects with the homeless, incarcerated, drug addicted, college students, young children, senior citizens, etc.  Several times / week there will be free classes and craft times where everyone is free to come and create.  Some sessions will be dedicated to art therapy.  Once the program runs for a few months Love Studios will develop an art show, using pieces created by the center participants; proceeds of the sales to be split between the artist, the venue, and a donation towards various philanthropy projects.   The ultimate goal of the arts program will be to take the same volunteer intern art therapy program and "franchise" it in other communities - providing a non-intrusive form of therapy / relaxation to the entire regions.  

Additional long term goals also include a community mural project, where the community votes on proposed mural ideas and then the top murals are painted around the town, on donated wall space.  Each year the walls are painted over and a new set of murals are painted.

I suppose I should have written this in the beginning - but these are some small details, in comparison to the long term message I would like to convey.  However, I will add them as a part of my history to provide some additional insight.  I am originally from a small town - Espanola, NM.  Georgia O'Keefe, Ansel Adams, and Henry Matisse are among my favorite artists.  Personally, I experiment with all mediums, paint - watercolor, oil, and acrylic - free form ceramics, wood sculptures, photography, and writing.  I have had no formal training.  Any success has through the desire to let go and just be who I am in my heart....an artist.  I would like to take some courses to develop my techniques.  I will be posting different pieces, from my International artist relationships and also center participants, periodically and would appreciate all comments, suggestions, and critique. 

I have evaluated my cumbersome life habits and transformed my life so I can achieve my long term goals of opening an arts community center and eventually a non-profit organization that reaches out to many different groups of people in need.  I have lived and seen both historical and private moments that make me want to stand up and make a difference.  My life may not be considered socially acceptable standard, but I hope through this blog you will recognize points of change and utilize them in your own life – helping to make the world a bit nicer than you found it.

I look forward to cultivating a greater understanding of this planet, our mutual connection as a family joined by humanity, and art through your comments and connection. 

It is a pleasure to meet all of you and continue on our journey together.  

Spring~SSS